Ugh, in an attempt to edit my last post yesterday, I accidentally deleted it! So I want to make a note of the important points: life is cool, I've been fortunate to have lots of cool experiences, I'm excited for the cool experiences to come, I got a new computer, I will be in debt forever. That sums it up. :)
But for real, I am getting got more than ever, it seems. But that is usually the case when it comes to extreme change. The past decade of my life has been outside of school, when the previous fourteen years had been inside it. I feel I am returning to something very familiar and yet totally new, like reconnecting with an aunt or uncle you haven't seen since you were 6 years old. Community college is especially special, because it's like going to high school for adults. The campus is incredibly small and a little busted, and no one's trying to pretend like it's anything more than that. But that humility is incredibly endearing, and I find myself loving each person I see, imagining what their story might be, wondering what they must think when they see me. It's a whole new world, and I'm trying to let my wonder override my anxiety.
If you were riding in a machine to the bottom of the ocean, would you want to be consumed with anxiety that you could quite possibly die, or would you want to be consumed with the wonder that you were alive in this magnificent place, overcoming the odds and experiencing life in a whole new way? That's my motto for the next couple of weeks.